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Posted on Aug 26, 2014 in Blog | 4 comments

IMG_3910Start before you are ready.

I’m not sure who is whispering these words into my ears lately, but they keep haunting me.

There are times when I feel very bold and brave and I’ll do things like quit school and move across the country to New York City.  Or travel to Italy by myself for my birthday. Or get a job as a hairstylist on Broadway, when I’ve never touched a wig before in my life.  (Yes, they ALL wear wigs on the Broadway).  But other times, I get stuck.  I want everything to be “perfect” before I start something even tho I know perfectionism is an “ism.”  What does that even mean?

I don’t even realize that I’m not taking action on something. I’m just cleaning, researching, analyzing, working (or recovering from working), paying my bills or playing with my dogs (cuz puppy playtime is crucial).  I’ll think, “I have to take a writing class before I start blogging.  Or I want to take one more on-line business course before I start my business. Or I’ll start getting back to trapeze classes as soon as I get my business going and don’t have to work at my exhausting “day job”.  And it is true, we have things to take care of in life.  But if we don’t give attention to what is calling us it begins to haunt us and pretty soon 10, 20, 30 years will go by and we will still be working at a job that sucks the soul out of us, cleaning the house and running errands.  And that will be that.

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About 2 years ago or so, my boyfriend, Scott Mills, decided that he wanted to enclose our carport and make it something cool.  We started joking about it being our “yoga studio” because we thought that would be cool. So roughly two years later, after pouring concrete, re-purposing windows, buying a door system, putting down wood flooring, buying a bunch of doors and adding stain glass to one of them, the “yoga room” is almost done. Sort of … except for the 1/2 done bathroom, some doors, some drywall, some paint, and a random section of tile on the floor that is not done, but otherwise, it’s pretty much done.  :D

So Scott was like, “when are you going to start having yoga classes in our yoga room?”  And I was like, “ummm when is it going to be ready?”  And he was like, “it’s totally ready”.  And was like, “part of the floor is missing, it’s totally not ready. What will people think of me when they come over and see me? Imperfect?”  And Scott was like, “I don’t know what to tell you, my tile saw is on loan so it’s done for now.  Look, you can totally roll around on the floor, there is beautiful light and a brand new air conditioning system!  It’s terrific!”  He didn’t really use the word “terrific”, but I like that word and am trying to bring it back.

So I invited some of my friends over and we did yoga.  Then the next week more people came and the next week even more.   The  bathroom, the drywall, the paint and the floor are still not done.  But guess what?  Yoga doesn’t care that the room is not ready.  And none of my friends care either (or maybe they do but they are just being kind by not saying anything).  When my class is over my friends don’t say, “that was great, but when are you to fix the floor?”  My friends say, “Oh my gosh, that was awesome.  I totally transcended, I feel blissed out and terrific!

IMG_3913What you dream will happen… when you start doing it, living it, building it, creating it -imperfectly.  Starting your business, eating more kale, writing in your journal, getting serious about your health and wellness, practicing yoga everyday, going to amenzone, going back to school, learning how to knit – whatever it is; It happens when you start.

Teaching classes in my little tiny studio is a step towards a big dream.  I don’t know how long it will last, where it will lead or if people will come next week.  I just know that I had to start.  I had to start teaching there in that space and then be ready for anything.  Yeah.  Start and then be ready.  I totally had it backwards the whole time!

 

 

 

 

 

 

4 Comments

  1. Sort of the ‘if you build it, they will come’ phenomenon. Put yourself out there and see what happens! Glad to hear you’re doing so well. Wish I lived closer!

  2. Well said, my friend!

  3. Absolutely beautiful. I really needed to read this today, thank you

    • You’re welcome. :D Thank you!

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